feipo - ♥

A penny for your thoughts.

2012-02-01T10:37:00.000+08:00

had a weird dream but i forgot 90% of it.

i should stop thinking so much right before i sleep.
the dreams affect my mood in the morning all the time!

" 萬衆之下，生命中那個特別的另一半，到底在哪里？"

十三

2012-01-31T23:35:00.001+08:00

i'd not forgive anyone that hurts my 13plets.

no reason to why i love them so much. i just do. all of them.

不能再依赖

2012-01-31T23:25:00.001+08:00

suddenly i feel so much better after tearing a lil.
for the whole day my head was so heavy......

honestly can't believe the words and concern i get from people who don't know me.
they tell me they can lend me a shoulder.
this morn in school i was feeling so horrible :(
i scared my mates and they didnt dare to talk to me, they said i was so quiet.

after app-ing with S the whole cmbio lesson i was feeling so much better.
hahahaha really ah this guy.
anw, sorry S. you know why im apologising.
maybe i should be more discreet upon saying about that incident. :(
thankq to the people who came to talk to me,
thanks to the strangers who came to comfort me.
thanks to the people who lend me their ears.

anw, im happy today cos i know TL is attached!
:D
love to see people in love.
glad they found someone who appreciates who they are.

gdnaix.

strucked

2012-01-31T00:39:00.000+08:00

i remember what yejiaolian said.

今晚清醒多了.

had a long walk with mf and glad to be talking to her about all my stuffs,

all my worries all my doubts.

but still...

i dont feel good.

tonight i feel like sleeping and tmr never comes. never ever comes

gdnaix.

鸵鸟

2012-01-30T19:00:00.003+08:00

~~是一种特殊的味道,~~

~~不是谁谁谁都能给的.~~

~~最近,~~

~~真的很快乐:)~~

酝酿的情感

2012-01-30T12:02:00.000+08:00

so most of my boys and girls are awake and have gotten their posting.
it suddenly feels so weird to hear them talk about things that are alien to me,
and i foresee in the future it'll be pretty much like this.

what's weird is probably not their alien language..?
maybe im not very used to them growing up.
i've been like a elder sister to them these 4years (almost)
and suddenly these few months together its like im taken care of by them instead.
very glad my boys are becoming MEN already :)

yesterday was a long day!
went for bainian at K's early in the morning, had our first 13plets Lo Hei :)
first CNY spent together.
after that lepak at her house till almost 5pm and went over to De's.

had steamboat at his house and had another Lo Hei!!!
IT WAS THE BEST LO HEI I HAVE EATEN IN MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thankq D's family and K's family for being such great hosts to us!
then went to surprise Q at the airport!
after that went to have supper~ homed & slept @ 4am.
really dont know what's wrong with me already.
slept 3hours and woke up at 7am to go school! surprisingly,not very tired.
had my prac exam......and it well pretty okay? average paper with common sense used.....
make me left the room feeling so guilty.
i didnt even study for it and now IM GETTING MORE AND MORE COMPLACENT.

gtg im feeling sleepy
feels like having a cup of starbucks javachip now
enjoy life and complete my 99% done project which was done in 2hrs
my grpmates and i are pros when we're serious keke

if someone asked me if it was possible to love more than a person at a time, i'll definitely answer yes.

da ones

2012-01-29T04:30:00.000+08:00

Just went to ikea,got my mirror mehehe.

Ate icecream too!! Yay today sho love one ~

couldnt finish the wings. greedy us ordered 12pcs -.-

the token of the soft ice-cream machine in Ikea!!! so cool!!!!

and C treated us ice-cream ^^

trying to figure out how to operate it

tadahhh

hehehe!! new mirror!!!! yay!! but currently in y's crib cos ytd it wasnt convenient to bring it home~

sung ktv till 2am!! shiokness overload.

after that was so exhausted and my gastric keeps acting up i was practically losing my temper :(

sorry n!

going to head out in awhile again!

bai nian with my bbeis :D

its only 8hours ago i parted with them yknow...

don't ask me...
what's game,remains as game. once we're out,game over. :(
i dont even know what is this. how can it be?

Chu Chu Chu

2012-01-28T11:26:00.001+08:00

stupid dream got me crying when i woke up..

people say when you cry in your dreams and when you wake up,

that means you'll have something you're hiding deep inside..

gotta prepare.

someone's coming to visit and im still in my PJs.

gosh hahahah have a great weekends! win more $$!

gonna meet my bbeis tonight,

HAVENT SEEN THEM FOR AGES ( 2days )

交涉人

2012-01-28T01:00:00.001+08:00

不问不是不在乎,
是不知道那答案..是不是我要的.

你要说的时候,
你该知道我一定会在.
I will be there to listen.

What a night.
Gdnaix my bbeis,the 13plets.

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1239hrs now.

2012-01-27T12:43:00.001+08:00

Less than 6hours to weekends.. Can you smell it already?

Making plans for the weekends now,a lot of time constraints clogging up.

Having a headache from all the planning already but,its all gonna be worth it :)

Have a good weekends people.

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惆怅

2012-01-26T22:13:00.000+08:00

very very excited!!!!!!!!!!!
tmr is friday mehehe
finally de is gonna be back:(
it feels like he's been gone for WEEKS.

left with one more project presentation to go!!!!!
argh! this 2 weeks is so hectic with all the deadlines i feel like dying.
its so hard to kope. especially with my very laidback character. -__-
luckily we're always the " suay " one ( very contradicting i know ) so we always have to present our projects first.
but that's better for us since we don't have all the shits cramped up when its near exam period!
all the revision dates and stuff......zzz piss me off.

here's the vlog M has done! in collation of 2012 countdown, Genting 2011!
the Genting collation makes me miss my bbeis so much :(
well done M! good vid!

have to plan the CNY thing soon!!
its like in hours' time! *laidback character showing up again........

anyway, been a very good girl these 2 days.
drinking alot of water and eating alot of veggies and sleeping by 11pm and up at 6am -.-
damn no life.
but hey my face needs to slim down and my weight needs to cut down in numbers.

hope to hear from de in 25hours!

gdnaixxxxx.

相爱很难.

2012-01-25T21:59:00.006+08:00

chinese new year got boring ever since i started to be more aware of my surroundings.
cousins got married, had kids, and then the times we spent together is way lesser at each gathering.

can't even sit down and have a good dinner.

times were made better when we went to c's house and gambled yesterday!
played in-between,
and won some $$ hehe

tonned again and feeling so worn out.

disgusted at my own attendance this whole term and i have to go peer tutoring on vday.
sad enough i don't have a date and i still have to go school.
then have exams.
THEN ATTACHMENT.
i totally lost my stand in continuing school again.
wasted 1 whole year....should i waste my time again?
don't worry, im doing it again.
let me cry, i should be okay, i guess.

i need shoulders..:'(
我想要自由..

started being this little...

till it got this much. my crazy bbeis,haha

梦醒时分

2012-01-24T09:25:00.001+08:00

梦见自己将以前的一切都忘记..
是好事吗?
可是我不想忘了你们:(
把最好的回忆遗忘....?

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绝笔.

2012-01-24T02:29:00.001+08:00

我们从很久很久以前就出现问题了.

是你一直逃避,

是你每一次都装做没事.

现在我们能怪谁?

不是变了..

是问题累积太多了.

是我累了.

感觉上我从没了解过你,

你也什么都不告诉我.

别忘了,

是你拒我于千里之外的.

Just like the old times,

2012-01-22T14:12:00.002+08:00

thought i wouldn't see my bbeis for quite awhile since they're overseas!
but had a impromptu meet up at hollandv last night and most of them came over after their outings! :D
went to eat SST muahahahah! love golden roll already :(
next time its a must order!!
had sake, and it tasted so badddddddddddd even though it was smooth.
after that went to C's house to slack and we headed back when it was 230am.

i had a weird dream.. i actually found last year's CNY new leftover clothes in my cupboard o.o
2 pieces somemore LOL.
so i kinda interpreted it as, i've got things undone from last year?
ok tata time to pack my cupboard and keep my bags -___-

piccas not in order!!!!

went for CNY shopping with da girls&boys

after that went to Lau Pa Sat to eat satay~~

ytd she came over in the morn and woke me upppppp

then here's the pics on 19th! our birthday celebration for x&s @ S crib.
sung ktv at his house till 6am!!! and had only 1 and a half hour of sleep then headed to sch.
*pats on my own back. im a pro.

not funny lor this boy also gonna ps me for 5days :"(
still want act one nua there 3months with S and dont come back!!!

got 2 pocket god character behind!

ytd's impromptu meeting!

GOLDEN ROLL. first try......TASTED SOOOO NICE

hmm guess who got a love bite on the new year? ;)

HEYYYYYY GUESS WHO GOT THE BIRKS????? hehehe after 3 days, our birks came!!!! YAY!
express mailing FTW! ordered online and mine was around 40$S cheaper :D

i miss you :( HURRY COME BACK LA!

Sunshine

2012-01-21T12:43:00.002+08:00

did you miss my face? hahahahahahah
caught a late night movie ytd, and gosh, its one of the lousiest movie Jack Neo has made!
not nice and very draggy.
did he purposely add in alot of morals and stuff?
cos there were SO MUCH OF THEM and nope, it wasnt touching enough.
a crybaby like me DIDNT CRY!!
so not worth the watch.

y and ky left for msia already! :(
meh. gonna be a very quiet CNY cos alot of them are not here :(

got woken up by xx this morning,then sent her off to tuition
gonna shop somemore later! cos someone is paying for me~~ hehe
tonight got mom's got her reunion dinner with her sisters ( my aunts ) so we're gonna go tgt!
YAY!!!! i love gatherings.

tata, hope today will be a good one!
have a long and good weekends today everybardiiiiiiii

" Number 5
You are very popular and you can get things done only by talking. Even to your
enemies! You are business-minded and like to do things spontaneously. You will
be famous if you get involved in any business. Your friends and families will
always ask for your help, and you are the one actually with the money to help
your friends. You will have more than one relationship, but when you settle down

you tend to be selfish. You tend to go for other relationships – even if you are
married at times because of your popularity. You tend to get along easily with
anyone because the numbers is a middle number. You love freedom and changes. You learn your life through your personal experiences. Your best match 1, 2, Good
match 6, 8. "

wow its a spot on?! and my best matches are all of my bbeis except for......which i think is damn true also.
got it from pauline's blog :)

i thought you'll watch your words,but no,im still hurt everytime you tell me that.
maybe there's something wrong with me.
but hey, what's with that judgemental attitude?
i didn't even do anything to you.
annoying.
NEVER GONNA DO ANYTHING TO PLEASE YOU, NEVER.
not like you're my whoever -.-

You da one?

2012-01-18T23:10:00.003+08:00

Baby, I love you, I need you here
Give me all the time
Baby we meant to be
You got me, smiling all the time
Cause you know how to give me that
You know how to pull me back
When I go runnin, runnin
Tryin' to get away from loving ya
You know how to love me hardI won't lie,
I'm falling hard
Yep, I'm falling for ya but there's nothin wrong with that
You da one that I dream about all day
You da one that I think about always
You Are da One So I Make Sure I Behave!
My love is your love, your love is my love

not a good day.
went town and didnt get anything for myself -.-
totally refuse to buy anything cos i am stingy about spending on myself. -.-
and i found extra money in my acct. wtf.
i dont even rmb why still got money inside.

exhausted and........sad.
i felt like im the dumbest person on earth.
so easily manipulated?
its as if im just hollow.......and you fill my emotions.

yet, i still love you.
gdnight.

Sheeps.

2012-01-18T11:20:00.005+08:00

honestly.
how can anyone not fall in love with the girls around me?
they are so goddamit cute.
i swear.

dreamt of my bbeis last night again.
i guess i miss them too much.

煎熬

2012-01-18T01:00:00.003+08:00

really catching up with my sleep debts this week.
my body is already reaching the limit, resulting in me dozing off almost anytime,anywhere.
i've never been able to fall asleep on buses.
now i fall asleep within 5mins on a bus. -.-

so happy to see people around me being happy!
esp Fei. hahahahaha. please be this happy for as long as you can!
its an awesome 2012 start for you. :)

overwhelmed by guilt. i've been skipping so much lessons this term,screwing every single assignment that comes to me.
i feel so bad for people who are nice, really nice, to me.
all i do is give them a black face when im unhappy :(
and yet they still smile and say sorry to me!
tsk. all the nice people....yet i push them away.
im honestly an asshole in school. its like im like 100000 times more spoilt -.-

mixiuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu :(

孩子气

2012-01-17T09:48:00.001+08:00

" “愛有的時候真的很難很難告訴她尤其是當我們處在戀人未滿,朋友之上那種很想很想告訴她"我愛你"的感受卻害怕"她"僅僅把你當好朋友也害怕說了後連好朋友都做不成。但是...如果不說那麼你只能看著她的背影與她被另一個他緊緊依靠最後聯繫慢慢沒了見面也慢慢沒了。就算見了面, 也只能聽她述說著另一個他戴著那破爛的笑容的假面具"祝福她"。這算什麼?! 你與她之間的秘密你與她做過那許許多多點點滴滴的小事，你逗她開心，你在她難過時安撫她, 給她一個肩膀靠著，那些全部全部算什麽？難道你這麼愛她,就因為害怕而不把握而把你心愛的她拱手讓人還祝福她交了一個好男友？別傻了。你這樣只能讓所有人都失望不管她愛不愛你不管成不成功一定要找個好機會對她說: "我愛你" 珍惜每一個人吧。各位，人生連百年都沒有好好珍惜每一位身邊的人。”
quoted from an anonymous, cause it just made so damn much sense.
Though a little amendment.
Let this be a reminder to myself too.
有時，寂寞得很淒涼，淒涼得很舒服。"

quoted from xiuzhenwoaini.blogspot.com

its us, not being able to deal with whatever comes next.
cos we all know, once being said, there's no point of return.
may i be a coward all my life....

怎么了

2012-01-17T00:54:00.001+08:00

有些时候希望你能体谅我多一点,
多疼我一点.

但是到最后我发现,
我还是我..
永远就是我.
在你眼里; 就是简单的我.

不是什么说了就好.
感觉不到的东西,就不会是真的.

算了,
也没人会了解.

我说过了,
不哭的..

in your arms

2012-01-16T10:50:00.001+08:00

Didnt manage to sleep much at all this whole week,really reaching the god-like stage. -.-

Was helping at de's dad stall that day! So fun! When we all working tgt :)

Ended pretty early even though quite alot work was to be done.

After that went to eat mac breakfast at westcoast,and wanted to head to haw par villa but it was closed.

Wanted to go look at the yatchs but cant go in and I was halfway gone in my dreamland hahaha. Damn tired I swear.

So drove back and all of us ate till so full the car didnt have acceleration even though we were going quite fast ~.~

Went to town on sat and bought quite a number of stuffs! Hehe.

But not quite done with my cny shopping :( nails not done too!

Alright tata!

Most of my dearies still sleeping miss themmmmm

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过火了

2012-01-13T16:52:00.001+08:00

今天还是第一次在班上发脾气真的惹火我了

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Just so you know

2012-01-11T22:11:00.002+08:00

working on my NR lit review now. fucking module.
useless and time consuming.
i need sleep.
hopefully i got good news tmr!
gonna keep checking my email hehe
ok gdnaix

i hate schhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh argh cant wait to finish this shit!
i want to play and go overseas!!!!!

thought you should know,
i tried my best to let go of you but i don't want to

when we grow up

2012-01-10T10:29:00.001+08:00

Found myself waking up searching for their voices.

I forgot they wont be around anytime soon

They are all still sleeping now I guess,sweet dreams my dears.

There must be a way. Must be. I will find the opening door!

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when we are together

2012-01-09T22:34:00.000+08:00

congrats to my 5A1s holder xiuxiu :)

the last time in their uniforms.

i prayed so hard, and i wanted all the greatest things to happen to my boys and girls.
i was so glad to see the smiling faces for my girls as they really have done a great job.

my boys have finally taken a load off their hearts that has been haunting them these few days.
they did well too, and im very very happy for them.
no one can understand the feelings i had when i was waiting for them to get the results.
i honestly think that im their mom or what.
some people ask why am i a 2year elder senior hanging out with them?
i cant answer that.. they are so special there isnt even a reason or an answer?

today i feel upset as im back to the feeling i had 2 years ago.
i will be there for you, whatever decision made.
cos we are one family,one clique.

im sorry for being so weak,
i should have been the pillar for everything.
i will try to be stronger than i am.
i will be the support you guys need.

i will stop crying. i will.

feel so exhausted cos i didnt sleep for 40hours already.
my eyes are swollen and tired. i still cant stop worrying...

what? i miss them all already.

Daylight with the sun

2012-01-09T10:28:00.000+08:00

at de's house now!!!
hehe yesterday ton over here and now everyone is awake.
to be honest i don't think anyone slept except for C.
he really damn zai one the whole night they were making so much noise he still can sleep!!!!
i didnt even sleep for more than 10 mins. all thanks to S at there pua stunt la!!
sleep awhile at there complain what hand numb, really stupid until one of a kind. hahahaha
then the x at there dunno high what sia?!
SHE DIDNT WANT TO SLEEP UNTIL LIKE 7AM!
kept singing and having pillow fights until no one bothered about her. hahaha EMO

nua in the bed, listening to those who didnt slept making noises and shouting while playing Wii outside..
i wondered to myself how lucky am i to wake up to all of them and even though i had like 10-15mins of sleep in 28hours......IM STILL GOING STRONG.
trust me, human bodies are amazing things.
throw me with these bunch of people and i can survive without sleep!!!!!

now this fucking s want to disturb my train of thoughts.

uncle told us alot last night and it set me thinking..
" I thought about how i should proceed with my own life,
but to no avail.
I'm still clueless about my direction in life because im s fat "

the above is written by S ~.~

but true that, im still lost :(
i know for sure that whatever i study doesnt apply to my future.
cos i already know i dont want to be a nurse in the future, affirmed decision.
so what should i do now?
my parents are not the type that actually lets me take the risks, or they are unable to let me take the risks.

the whole lot of guys are like worrying about their results.
:(
i am too.
i want the best for all of them........and sincerely i wish the best for them.
i know they have tried :)
their results will be out at 2pm!
keep faith!

i cant even type properly cos S is like disturbing me every 30secs hahahah
i feel so happy today......the last people i saw when i slept was them and so are they the people i see when im up.
if this can happen every single day of my life!

thanks uncle and auntie for being such nice hosts!
thanks dede whole family for letting us make so much noise ahahahahahah ok bye off to play!
:D

really enjoy the trees outside dede house then got the sun shine in while i type this whole chunk..

一念之差

2012-01-07T00:36:00.002+08:00

just bathe finished sho tired already
started my day only at 12pm! its been already 12 hoursssssssssssss

today during NSL heard about somethings and can't control hence teared a little :(
life is sad, you'll never know what happens tomorrow.

i don't know what i'll come across but im starting to wonder if i am still the strong person i thought i was.

so today after sch wanted to have dinz at Mahattan Fish Market!!!!
but im so stupid,i didnt realize the deal was only till 6pm!
tsk!! but luckily we were already tempted by this Japanese Ramen place at Iluma!
so we just changed our dinning place, and guess what! NO REGRETS!
hehehe
there was a total of 6 ramen stores at that place, and all of them are of pretty good standard back in Jap?
so there was this " competition " among these 6 chefs and we were able to vote for the best ramen store!
typical us confirm choose to eat the store with the current highest votes la!!!! LOL

we ate the no.1 choice ramen of the shop! forgot the name.
and....cannot describe the ramen well enough...IT JUST TASTED SO GOOD!!!!!
soup was thick and pork was nice, portion of food is quite big even though i ordered REGULAR!
so full. cannot imagine why the 2 girls actually can swallow down the large one!

after that went to woaiTaimei and headed to Haji!
it was like 9pm and so many shops were closed:(
i thought it will be still open! turns out all the sheesha and those alcoholic shops are the ones that opens.
my misconception of Haji Lane being very active at night -.-
we each bought something! hehe.

dont laugh.....idk why we so excited our alarm ring also. must take pic ~.~ hahaha wu liao max

hehe the 2 pretty girls! feel so under-dressed beside them today. :( they never give me warning one sia.

their white pearl not nice one :(

gdnaix.

普通的我们就可以了.
dead and disappointed.

看不见我的笑多受伤.

Short escapes to happy valley

2012-01-06T01:59:00.000+08:00

this 2 assholes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! going to escape from CNY!!!!!!!!!
omg...............im going to die from boredom in sgp.
i want go with them hahahahahahah

really pretty obsess with the iphone nowadays :( NOOOOOOOOOO!!!
the apps are so fun esp all the personality quizzes and not to mention all the fun photo apps omg.

ate so much today:(
i ate lunch dinner and 2 suppers! omg.
so fat!! eating so much without guilt just now cos my mom told me ytd my thighs look slimmer cos i stopped playing ball -.-
NOW I EAT SO MUCH LA!!!!
it has really got nothing to do with playing ball. or something to do with it.....

okay gdnaix
i had short lived happy time meeting the clique!
it'll be a few days later till i see them again boohoo :'(

get out get out get outta my head, and fall into my arms instead
you've got that one thing

Took more steps than i should.

2012-01-04T23:20:00.000+08:00

I saw it.

Maybe its right, or maybe not.

I will make it better.

Really.

Because all of you are important to me like that.

EVERY SINGLE ONE.

缺一不可,懂吗?

Good year ahead?

2012-01-04T22:31:00.000+08:00

Amway. IMM. Wan Chai. Jurong Market. Jurong Point. Home. Coughing like dog.

i wish i had the courage to lay my heart down for once.
to leave. to pursue everything on my own.

its been such a long time someone told me that,
and i felt so...weird. and happy at the same time.
is it that im not use to such praises? or the people around me no longer give me those words,
and i start to believe they are fake?
what's wrong with me really.

不是觉得痛,是觉得空

2012-01-02T20:38:00.001+08:00

黑暗中,深思..但是回神时我却忘了想的;要的是什么.

你说过的,我记得.

这次,错不在我.

再次回到原点.

BRWKDJH.

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Last time.

2011-12-31T15:14:00.001+08:00

so sorry this post had to be dragged so long~
im really busy having the time of my life hahahahah!

so Genting trip was damn fun, esp it was with them :)
the 11 of us was on a trip on our own! ( or so we call it )
totally planned the trip ourselves.

played rides, watched movies, spent 3 days together like a family..
& also, this trip we had 2 new couples!
:D
one of which is Q and D! hehehe!
the lizard parents!

& the other is the Dragon Parents,
M and Y, which they will be officially really together in awhile. :)
not kidding!

sidetrack abit this is when we went to countdown for xmas!

the organisers!! ahaha

hahahhaah!!!!!!! i swear our random shots are always so funny!!!!!!!!!! look at xiu!!

our 9 heroes who went up the space shot for the 3rd time in the heavy heavy mist and dark dark night.

1st day!

our last night at Genting

went to have dinner @ Mushroom garden in Genting.
service was fucking bad as usual, cos they really look down on students like us.
they're afraid we can't pay up or something???
seriously. -.-
for all the fish and all the meat we ate, we only paid 10$/person.
SHO CHEAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tze char okay!

they forced me up the viking ship. all the CBs!!!!

this is like the umpteenth fail group shot -.-

heheh coperate shot!

just reached Genting First World hotel

really dk what sam doing la!! LOL

they insist want to take with the dustbin, pose with the dustbin -.- say got more swag

yeah!!! bought our 2day pass and RUNNING INTO THE THEMEPARK!!

looks like sunrise or sunset?? nope it was at least 1 plus 2 plus am in the morning~~
we sat out in the 13degree weather and talk until around 4am.....happy fun love warmth laughters friendship were the most precious things we had then.

while waiting for our superstar van to get back to hotel from Mushroom garden.
THE WIND WAS SO FREAKING STRONG EVERYONE GOT INTO VIBRATE MODE

HAHAHAHAHAHAH SUPERSTAR SWAG POSES

another one..... #epic fail

tsk tsk sam what you doing? hahahahaha

finally some decency? but couldnt capture everyone.

our cheering team while playing arcarde carnival games!

hahahaha doing some lame tap feet game! i love this pic cos it captured our laughter:)

going up in Cockscrew!

watching the most #FAIL Jet Li movie, dunno what Dragon gate de. end up.....almost everyone fell asleep.

HAHAHAH THEY REALLY MUST MAINTAIN SIA!!!!

all of us went to sing KTV also

went haunted house also....where something epic happened! LOL.
it was damn funnnnnnnnnnnny.
Q got freaked out by the ghost and couldnt move, and C abandoned her!!! hahahahah!!

C's side of the story was, he tried to whack the ghost......and end up the one he whacked was q!
LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL go watch our video on the award winning ceremony, you'll see.
the link is on one of my tweets, happy finding:)
not gonna post it here cos its an unlisted video.

eh Q you look like you got a super long pony tail here!!!

going into haunted house! it improved alot from the last time i went in.

MY FACE SPELLS I HATE VIKING

the ride moving........

so 2011 is coming to an end...i'd say, its yet another bad year for me.
might be the worse. shed so much tears to the extend my imbalanced single eyelid become double eyelid.
NOT KIDDING.
nothing much has changed, im still stuck handling all my mistakes and my misjudgements and wrong decisions.
as time goes by i've become a sadder person everyday, i know that myself.
i wish things can go better for me, i wish i can be happier.......so much happier.
i don't know when can i ever be happy again, on my own, not only with them around.
i know they won't be there forever.

i wish there was another me, another me to accompany me.
i feel so suffocated all the time i don't know who to turn to.

i don't want 2012 to be like this again.
i don't want to cry almost everyday again.....

2012, please be nice to me.
for 2012, i want to be happy. really.

i want to thank the people who is always there talking to me when im crying...
be it crying over very minor things or me crying over my school again...
i want to thank them so much cos every single time i'll be telling them the same thing,
and yet they always accompany till very late at night, just texting me telling me it'll be okay,it'll be over.
these 3 heroes, you know who you are :)
anw you'll receive a ending 2011 text from me la! hahaha.

thanks S for being a great bro all this while. one guy i cannot afford to lose in my life. mushy things cannot say here already hahahah later i puke out my lunch.

thanks C for being a great bro too, but a bro i have to keep my distance cos he has this weird thing about him. haha. but really, pls dont ever keep anything to yourself alright? you know i'll always listen to you when you need listening ears.

to the one female that i've known for almost a century, meifen, you need to come back now hahahaha.
you don't know how grateful i am to have you in my life. cannot ever lose you also.

the rest of my friends...thanks for being my friend, being part of my happiness, being the source of my happiness. but i hope you guys be together in harmony more,and give me less problems too alright.

for some good news,
we now officially have a new couple :)
DRAGON COUPLE IS OFFICIAL FROM 31DEC 2011 ONWARDS.
bye everyone, i'll see you next year.

We're back!

2011-12-29T00:14:00.004+08:00

hello we're back!

seems like this 3 days went pass too fast :(

it felt like a 100sec ride! we're back at homebase before we know it.

so much to blog about the whole trip! there's too much info!

this whole trip felt really fresh even though we went last year.

gdnaix imma sleep before 4am for the first time this week.

grasp everything we have.

2011-12-27T23:47:00.001+08:00

Hi greetings from Genting!

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xmas 2011!

2011-12-25T04:17:00.001+08:00

Already uploaded onceeeeee but itchy hand pressed delete ~.~

Efficient me immediately did another post! Here!

Had a fun xmas countdown,except for the part we had to run away from the crowd...

The people there totally insane one.

认识的也喷不认识的也喷 -.-

At the start of the countdown some cbks even threw coke at us. _|_

Dont know why y and i so suay sia.

Somemore is those bastards drink abit already and throw at us one

Had alot of fun with the guess the song game,had like so many ridiculous drawings after that!!!!!

Went to eat mac after all that and cab back.

gonna miss these days where we spend so much time together and stay out late..

love the gifts and cards :)

Really appreciate the effort even if its just a small thing:)

Thanks,you guys made today another special xmas!

Alright,bye!

Stay tune for more posts k!!

Try to post with pics when im in Genting too!!!!!

Holiday with my friends woohoo!!

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2011-12-25T03:56:00.003+08:00

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kingdom

2011-12-24T14:52:00.001+08:00

Hehehe im bored and sleepy thats whyyyyy :(

Im already done choosing my outfit and im just waiting.....for time to pass.

Now i shall go dry my hair. Bye!

Merry xmas eveyone :)

Spread the love!!!!!! <3

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Pitless

2011-12-23T23:02:00.003+08:00

i wish i could be more contented with my life,
because it seems to me now whatever i thought i have, doesn't belong to me.

i want to know you feel it, cause you are on my mind.

We're Universal.

2011-12-23T00:21:00.000+08:00

so, my 4days of coperate induction has ended!

the last 2 days was mad crazy,i really had so much fun!

thanks to my group 4 that we could go home so early and we really really had an awesome time together.

the first 2days was with siying and simin they all :)

thanks to them i wasn't that lonely! they make an awesome company too!

my last 2 days was with group 4, and they are really a hyper bunch!

we clicked almost immediately! LOL

i think all USS crews are that fun and outgoing, i swear!

everyone is a potential leader there!

took the transformer ride and OMG it was awesome!!

so cool la we were screaming and screaming and screaming......

we had like 100people in our class and almost 60 of us went to transformers.

and we lead the crowd there to madness..HAH!

cheering for every single evac dispatch and cylon dispatch!

SO DAMN HIGH!

we shouted so loud at transformer ride until my left ear couldnt hear anything for the rest of the day ~.~

went for BSCylon also! wapiang scream until throat pain!

let the pics do the talking! :D

really had an awesome time at USS,

even though i was mad tired every single day...

thanks to the guys and the girls!

i was really shy :x

ikr....shy like not in my dictionary

BUT I REALLY VERY ANTISOCIAL AND SHY LA!

they really lead me in~ thanks guys! (although they might not see this )

this pic is pretty dark cos it was starting to drizzle a lil :(
wanted to take pics with Optimus Prime but it started to rain and they had to escort him back.

we went to the malaysia food street exclusively open for staff until today!
OMFG the egg tarts are super heavenly!!
when it opens, MUST GO TRY OK! just outside USS entrance:D

while waiting for the transformers! :D

group 4!!

USS OA CREW!

& S is flying off later too :(
sian sian sian sian!! i'll miss him so much!!!!!!!!!!

High flyer

2011-12-21T23:10:00.000+08:00

N is flying tonight! @1am

he made a mistake and told us it was last night lor!
we all kena scammmmmmm.
then sourced out a new place to sing k omfg
it is good! CHEAP UNTIL~~~~
better than cdans!

then reached home caught a few hours sleep then go for work again -.-
i got a huge shitload of things to say.....not now.

just now went to Y's to sing her mom a birthday song! eat some cake and spend time watching tv at her house!
hahaha! so lame right i travel all the way there just to watch tv with her and watch lame videos LOL!
but so funny leh

i got pics!
but shall wait till tmr ba:)
i want go sleep now. gdnaix

妥協

2011-12-19T20:00:00.005+08:00

just come back from Y's house, spent a short 2hours eating something she made for me.

then started to write on the the 2 letters that has to be dispatched by tmr!
:(

N is leaving tmr night!

so fast right.

then thurs is S's turn.

tmr gonna meet them for dinz!!

ok im soooooooooooo tired omg gdnaix.

i need to complete the rest of the letters omg -.-

I HAVENT EVEN PACK MY LUGGAGE WTF!!!!!!!

some pics when we went to town that day.

ignore my pimple can. it just wouldnt go away. :(

she bought me this

and i bought her this

Combination.

2011-12-16T23:52:00.000+08:00

have you watched this MV yet?
sucha beautiful song.

suppose to start on my Xmas cards today.
totally no feel already.

why can't things get better?

2011-12-13T23:33:00.002+08:00

i'm afraid to move another step more.

how many wrong moves have i made?

how long do i still have?

i hate this uncertainty in my life, i hate this indecisiveness in me.

i hate myself the most.

Its the time of the year

2011-12-11T22:52:00.001+08:00

): sho tired.
today went town again cos kena aeroplane by my mom!
she pangseh me cos they had mj. wtf right!
so mean one. actually wanted to catch New Year's Eve de.
meh.
then went to town,shopped,AGAIN!
bought the final gifts! now im done with xmas shopping.
the cards i buy for like 1 week plus already?!
still havent write...... no mood no energy la!
i everyday also pua stunt one! hahahaha

going to town nowadays is like major exercise la!
all the ceebee people keep knocking into us and there's like a HUGE CROWD everywhere.
so warm and continuous walking makes us slim down.
sibeh tired,cannot tank already.
gdnaix.

to add on some people make me upset.
pui. -.-
so replaceable then no next time already.
me no give a shit anymore!
off to LJ. zzzzzzzzzz

Day #18 photo of one of my classes & a letter to someone who has hurt me

2011-12-11T03:18:00.001+08:00

i've abandoned my 30days challenge halfway so i'd thought i'll continue it back here.
so i stopped on the 18th day,
and it was to post a pic of a class i was in.

hahahhahaha my 4e2 '09!
:D

to the person who has hurt me so much.....

Dear ________________,
I don't know why we became like this. I don't wish to know the reason anymore,for now. You can happily ignore my existence ( which you already am doing ) ,i believe I'm very alright with this now. But I'm still very upset that you're a 2-faced person through this period I've known you. You used to make me wonder all the time, were we even friends back then? I was silly enough to be so upset you left me and then people had to let me know about what's happening to you. I guess its okay now, you probably needed some Aunt Agony and some outsider who knew nothing; to hear you rant about your stuffs back then. Now you're all good and happy, I guess that's when I become useless right?
I'm still grateful for you being there for me at times when I'm down,talking about the most nonsensical things in the night.. I'm still guilt-stricken that I wasn't been able to do much for you back those days....

but i have to add on, im already done grieving over this friendship.
i dont usually yearn for things to come back after they are gone.
in fact, like an open wound, it will cover up someday, with scab and new skin.
in the first place, you wanted to leave. you gave up.
goodbye and i never want to see you again.

我最多也只是哭个两三天.
之后,心就会死了.

peeps, just don't make any wild guesses about who this person is.
bet in your dreams you won't even figure out this fella.

Things to do before i die.

2011-12-11T00:10:00.000+08:00

actually want to post the list here one leh omg...........i look at my list i think im pretty mental HAHAHAHA

~~cant post it here i think? fucktards with no balls will judge me.~~
~~should i????????????????~~

1. confirm is to run off a cab without paying la?! confirm want to tank the cab fare until 50$+ or something. like that then exciting.

2. skinny dipping yo?! hahahahaha fuck that scene where bella and edward kissing naked in the lake was fuck hot.

3. peeing in a bush at this mature age would be fun..............

5. ~~i want to go pub and be 驻唱!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! really like singing alot. just one night k? even just one night i also can. i want go with ssssssssssssssssss~~ no i shall change it to SINGING IN MRT OR BUSES!!!!!!!!!! will you do this with me S? hahahahahahahah

7. bring my mama to NEW YORK!!!!! hahahahaha let her rock the streets yo!!!!!!!!!! *empire state of mind playing in the background * hahahahahha!!

8. date someone of my own sexxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.

can you imagine these are some of the mental things that goes through my mind most of the time?

removed some of the points cos i think its really too mental. hahahahah
so a few is missing!

Leap of.....hopeless.

2011-12-11T00:08:00.001+08:00

spend a really long week at attachment,
and my 2nd half is coming.
utilized my time super well, going out whenever possible!!!!!!!!!!
been so long never see the guys for like 5days!!!

ytd went to sing KTV with them and really not enough :(
so sian!!!!
then homed at like 4am?
we stood outside and discussed so long how to go home la LOL!

woke up at 1 today and head out to town,
walk until cui!
finally bought somethings after like.....5hours of walking hor y?
so fickle minded ah!

tmr she's going there again,good luck man. THE WHOLE PLACE IS LIKE FLOODED -.-
all go there see A&F naked models ah?
hahahahahaha actually i want to go see also but dunno at where leh sianzzzzzzz
they looked hot from the twitpics! heheheheh

ok gtg enjoy my cheeeken!

this video is about me getting scared by the champagne we opened at k's birthday surprise-.-

sho cute!

What's my image portrayed?

2011-12-09T00:36:00.001+08:00

“I was drawn to all the wrong things: I liked to drink, I was lazy, I didn’t have a god, politics, ideas, ideals. I was settled into nothingness; a kind of non-being, and I accepted it. I didn’t make for an interesting person. I didn’t want to be interesting, it was too hard. What I really wanted was only a soft, hazy space to live in, and to be left alone.”

— Charles Bukowski (via tumblr)

I wonder why people ask me what's on my mind most of the time I daydream.
Cos to be honest, I don't know either.
There's no reason for why I do somethings also.
So trust me,sometimes when I say 'I don't know' or 'nothing' , I mean it.

So cute right this note!
Used to be my lockscreen hahahaha

Hmmm 好希望感觉是能用瓶子装起来收藏的.想再感触的时候就拿出来回味一下那该多好~

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We found love.

2011-12-08T23:38:00.001+08:00

no picssssssssssss.
i've got alot of videos on hand but dont have time to upload them!
inferior of my video quality when i see m's -.-

reading blogs and super envy why they sho pretty.
:(
and to add on,love really makes one more beautiful :)

gdnaix time to sleep im tired and i feel inferior and guilty.
dang.

hahahahaha i swear its damn funny

Lonely Christmas

2011-12-02T22:33:00.001+08:00

im back~~
so sorry for leaving this place so quiet and dead.
never been free as usual but hey today is a stay in day! haha

been having so much fun recently!
these 3 weeks is awe-fu-some.
spending alot of time with my loves.
xmas trip is really around the corner :)

but CA is around the corner too :(
so annoyed.

so happy recently..
so scared it'll end soon :(

plus decided to not go FT Island concert already.
the venue was Max Pavillion and i heard that the music wont turn out nice there cos of some reasons and we thought we'd give it a miss.

chalet was last week?
seems like it was very very long ago le sia.
just completed my CTs also, confirm gg one. hahahaha never study at all.
plus this whole week i've been sleeping so little its crazy!
massive training for my sleeping skills?
then turns out i cant sleep on my bed anymore lor.
last night i was up till like 4am and woke up at 7am to head for the paper.
just now napped for 2hours and got woken up by my neighbour again -.-
srsly dont know why they keep shouting.
super mental sia.

meeting the boys and girls almost everyday!
hahahaha hmm getting sick of their faces? :p
no la!
still very happy with them~ alif is our fav venue recently lol

ytd went back for training and booked C & M's tickets to genting!
yay!!
and i thought my muscles still can tank...then didnt warm down.
today macham like robot!
sneeze also scared.................PAIN LEH hahahah

piccas

k's birthday cake! it was niceeeeeeeee

ok goodbye!
waiting for fat bro to come back with fries yay!!

True?

2011-11-29T22:34:00.001+08:00

So affected just by one sentence. I know time is running out...can I just embrace whatever I have now?
No one promises what happens in the future.
Can we stay like this forever?

We can all chat forever..laugh till our stomach hurts..talk about every single shit in life..

I want to be with you all.
The only time I'm really happy.
累得很开心..

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With the deepest feelings.

2011-11-26T17:58:00.001+08:00

Last night was a major turnover!
The ones that are always taking care of others got taken care of for a change. Haha.

So grateful to KY MF Dede C for taking care of me last night :)
Really. Dede had to keep answering my stupid questions and keep asking me to sleep :x

X and I was like floating all over the place.. Hahahaha and laughing and crying together.
It was just so emotional :(

Now I know how it feels to be high and how it makes you say the things you'd never thought you could say it out and do the unbelievable things...

Thanks for all the Angels for taking care of the 6 of us last night :)

25/11/2011 - 26/11/2011 , our first time mad till this extend.
& probably the last. Haha.

The heavy head and giddiness is really no joke.....
Now I'll catch some sleep and shall head out later.

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making a decision.

2011-11-23T23:36:00.001+08:00

so many things happened today :(
cried in school....
cried at home... sho fucked.

im crying almost everyday.
my happy days,are gone,officially.

and i dont have enough sleep everyday. fuck my life.
waiting for my final PPTX to be emailed to me, help with some referencing...and im off to sleep.
先来一个mask吧.

it was my dear's birthday yesterday.
thank you for always being there. always. you know what i mean :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DONGSENG ^^

2011-11-22T21:41:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday to you, love you :)

Saranghaeyo~~~

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top of the world.

2011-11-22T19:18:00.001+08:00

Heading out soon! Have a surprise to give :)

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Good music changes things.

2011-11-20T23:05:00.001+08:00

i will survive right?
cos i still have my Sens. i still have feity, i still have C.
i will stop being so sad and i'll be happy right?

i tired from crying...........seems like i cried 500ml of tears. god.

Abandoned.

2011-11-20T01:09:00.001+08:00

NO PICSSSSSSSSS. im too emo and lazy to upload.

omg i actually abandoned this place for 2 weeks?!
but well its not like anyone's been following this place :/
term 1.2 is coming to an end soon. :(
im not sad cos its ending.. its cos............. forget it i dont even want to mention to make myself sadder.

spending much time with my fresh graduates.
yes, officially graduated ytd! :)
they had their prom, and god, i swear they all looked so good..
is good even a word enough to describe the beauty that shone from them last night?

nostalgia.
hit me quite hard its time i admit they're all grown up, and i've grown old.
it was 2years ago i went through alot of hassle for my own prom.

accompanied my ladies to Jeanette's house to do the make up and i so regretted why i didnt know her 2 years ago.
but the make up took too long and we were sooooo late.
sent them straight to the hotel, and C was waiting for them there.
my heart really skipped a beat when i saw C. haha.
TOTALLY MY PROM KING!
gave them one hug each and it was so hard to contain my tears. damnnnnn.

after that went to sing KTV and really, it was one of the worst waits ever.
NOBODY TWEETED ANY SHIT ABOUT THE PROM THROUGHOUT.
knn!! WTF!! GAN!!!!!!!
damn boring one. no live updates and there was totally no climax -.-
no one even tried to keep outsiders in suspense....tiu.

sang until 2am and was suddenly cut off cos they were closing.
so pissed i totally gave that bitch attitude. thanks me smlj?
went to alif and ate my fav cheese prata and walked home after that, 4am reach home.
7am i woke up :( check phone then downstairs keep drill drill drill FUCK!!!
but i still slept until 3pm i think hahahahaha

went for the movie, The Apple Of My Eye.
will get back to this later.

& that day went to fetch C from work.
hmmm. i wondered if that's a dream job for that lady?
doing things she like? till late hours? irregular working hours?

anyway this week has been so tiring but i felt so happy.
its been so long.
this whole week i go to bed feeling happy, wake up feeling happy.
never happened to me since........the start of my poly life.

看了那些年我们一起追的女孩
好伤感
我不明白那种一直想哭不停的感觉是什么
是失恋的感吗
有些人是注定不能在一起的吗
不是时间的问题吧

整部电影中我想每个人心中一定在想着一个人
那个是你们的青春
如果还没有那个特别的人别心急
一定会来的

在想为什么我不能成为你们生命里的一部分
最重要的时候我没能参与
这两年的距离对我来说真的很大

inferior and in constant need of assurance?
im so sick of being like this all the time. why can't i have a break from all these insecurities?
i keep telling myself i am not really important,so i cannot expect anything.
but some feelings are so hard to control!!!!!!
if its humane to want what you give in return, i'd rather not be human.

if everyone had a choice, who would it be?
what's that determining factor?

worth pondering.

2011-11-06T16:45:00.000+08:00

falling sick omg -.-
must be the crazy sun yesterday! plus i had less than 1litre of water even though i was under the huge sun!
anw, went to support H and I's bvb match @ sentosa yesterday!
so proud of the boys :) they are really the black horses! hahahaha
but they are really good! more stable than other teams ( IMO ) and they both make a good combo!
CONGRATZ AGAIN FOR THE 3RD RUNNER UP POSITION! :D
you guys are awesome! ^^
didnt make me rush all the way down for nothing ah! :p
st,c and f was there to support them too! so we had short plays inbetween,during their breaks.
so exhaustinggggggg omg. the 4 of us very long never play ball already,and the first few rallies were like....
THE HAND WASNT OURS?! LOL.
totally cannot control.

missed the sand and sun there,for once. haha.
will be there again after their Os!

mdm tan keep asking them to eat bananas!!!!!
hahahahaha. end up we got offered some too LOL.
so my lunch was a banana.

after everything ended at ard 5pm, we went to buy Gong Cha and coincidentally saw K and her cousin!

after that went to meet Q at 313 to head over to the flea~ the crowd was huge.
didnt get anything much, just managed to buy everyone's xmas gift! :D
so we dont need to be vexed ~ already buy finish liao mehehe.
shop finish and met ky and sam to have dinz/supper @ chompchomp!
so shiok. they eat finish still want to eat frolick omgggggggggggggg
super fat.lucky i didnt eat any.
bet the smoky enviroment at chomp chomp contributed to my very annoying throat now.
:( plus ytd slept at 3am wtfuckssssssssssss
feel a fever coming-.-
reached home ard 1am and my eyes were like REDDDDDDD

during our MS tutorial, we had to do some activity that makes us stand out from the social norm.
so my " dare " was to eat a stranger's food. hahahaha omg it was really crazy
but there were unfriendly people as well, argh. really didnt know why they had to react that way.
totally spoil my image of B.school girls. that girl was really stuck up. srsly. -.- _|_

so on friday was my dear xx's graduation ceremony. i swear i was about to cry like 80% of the time.
so touching how to not cry?! its like,you watch her grow... i was at her mom's wedding when her parents got married, was their bridesmaid and now,she's on her way to Primary school. so many feelings mixed together.
and, the PAP she was graduating from was mine too. so its been 12 years since i graduated from there..
time flies omg and the tcher that taught me then was still there. of cos she couldnt recognise me. lol

she was a starfish hahahaha

eye make-up really power LOL.

idk what sch is this, but haikal and ice won them 22-20!! but they got to compete for the 1st and 2nd position at the finals~~~ H&I competed with dunman for 3rd and 4th!

and so this marks half of my weekends!

简单的文字.

2011-11-02T21:25:00.000+08:00

谁说做不完的梦最痛?
对我来说,做不完的梦有我主宰.

柯景腾说, "只要够喜欢就没有办不到的等待. "
我想要相信这是真的..

不喜欢别人问我我不想回答的问题.
因为我没有答案.

很沉迷在柯景腾这个角色里.
他这个人很特别,
幽默,有毅力,有梦想...

跟你很像.

Cherry!

2011-10-24T22:25:00.000+08:00

when i look at this video i miss how cute Y is!!!!! :(
WHY SHE SO CUTE WHY SHE SO CUTE
cherry cherry hahahahahaha
then the mail i sent to her is missing WTF
we are so suay
then i went to buy the first TOTO in my life, collating all the numbers that relate to me and her,
like jerseys number and birthdates..
THEN OUT OF 12 NUMBERS ONLY GOT 24 CAME OUT -.-!
im not that kind of lucky kid that wins in gambling.
im those lucky kid that wins in things like.......getting a cheap deal out of nowhere?
ok i doubt that's lucky too.. emo :(

ANYWAY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST DARLING YAKIRA.
i love you cherry!

skipped today's morning lesson and then end up got surprise test wtf!
2.5% gone.
AAP was very beneficial~ love DrDave's lesson! so much more fruitful!
small jokes here and there with my 38 classmates make life so much better,
still rmb the last NSL lesson we had so much fun playing with each others' eyes with the handtorch!

Once again

2011-10-24T21:19:00.002+08:00

Lantern Festival 2011 P1 from Jingwen Cheong on Vimeo.

hahaha our crazy singing moments

What's my name?

2011-10-20T22:57:00.000+08:00

HOLA!! another week ending soon. school.....sucks. cant you believe i didn't fall asleep today?! i cant believe myself either. ESPECIALLY during AAP!!! i actually understood. still a lost lamb here and there inbetween but not falling asleep during one of my most hated subjects????
tmr must go but 4D!! or is it TOTO?

some of my dears already started their battle today! against Os!
all the best to them,think they said practical today was easy! good for them :)

can't wait to see all of them 3and a half weeks later...trust me, i've been counting EVERYDAY.
honestly this is like the biggest challenge of my life hahahaha kua zhang?
no. its true.
have to be a good kid,attend lessons everyday, till the day i decide to stop schooling.
yes i know....at times like this.. im still thinking of quitting.

anw! i have to keep my ponning quota until they end exams!!!! which is the 15th??
CANT WAITTTT
then its the most happening 2 last months of the year.
year 2011 has been pretty fucked up too.
cant wait for 2012 to come. i'd love 2014 to come right now, anyway.
ok i need to wash off my mask!
thinking of what to buy for fat bro's birthday!! :( tough decision leh.

dk where to go and hiao my weekends away too!!

hehe we are S's girlfriends

woohoo!! TLTSN slippers

been sending out mails these few days! ^.^

heh. gdnaix world,X.

nothing's new....

2011-10-13T21:11:00.000+08:00

i think its like age or some mental problem i have LOL
i've been acting alot on impulse nowadays!
went to get mac just now cos i feel like it now im filled with regret.
thinking about getting inked..............

hope tmr i get to see my cherry!
meeting the peeps for dinner tmr too! yay

Braided.

2011-10-12T00:09:00.002+08:00

finally met up with sis after so long!!
she said its been a month,im not sure how long it is but just very nonggggggggggg
hahahaha cos i dont really keep track of time.
she finally ended her Ns!:D
awesome! now she deserve a few days break before heading back for her Emaths paper!

today we went town and shopped!
walked for around 5 hours?! haha! we both spent quite an amount on just one item!
went home as happy girls and we chatted alot!

time to go! i just like force repair my phone and now everything's gone :(
need to reset so much stuffs!!!
and my locked texts are gone.........hmm nevermind.
okay gdnaix im so sad cos my msg NEVER EVER GET TO DARLING ONE!
she keep cannot receive!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :'(

but i edited my Handcent SMS now its so cute!!!!!!!!!!
pink pink pink with hello kitty omg hahahahaha yay

waaaaaaaaaaaaah. i didnt know you so short leh! :p hahaha

i realize people who takes pics with me turns out yellowish...... I just appear fair or red. KEKE good thing hor. you guys are the HUANG LIAN PO :P

i need a planner........but at the end of the year?? hahaha so insane

love my new loot for today!
but i feel so guilty...i've been investing at town everyweek!!!!! i need to stop this.

曾经想一起...

2011-10-09T22:50:00.001+08:00

volunteered for the NIKE 10k Race :)
i totally didnt know about the date until i got reminded ~.~
don't know why i so freaking mental recently!
i am like...crazy! i keep living in my own world how
i think i don't seem to concentrate hahahaha

so the NIKE race thing was SO TIRING!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i swear.
we practically slept for only less than an hour?!
i don't call it sleeping,really.
i was like just lying on the table but i had to keep moving cos my hands were sooo numb.
the whole night was just cold and wet :(
but really,it was pretty enjoyable!
played Daidee while waiting for our so called briefing to start~ played Old Maid also.
i'm like less unlucky now?? LOL
cos im not the biggest loser at the end.

the whole thing started at around 6.45am when we did some serious work.
i'm still shocked they actually asked us to do the timing for the runners!
we were so unexperienced and they just brief us for like 15 mins?!
but the whole process was so new and exciting!
i feel so touched when i saw the first runner coming in!!!!!
its like,wow,completed...
we were so lucky to be the first group of crew to leave :p
tired until i cannot open my eyes during my short bus trip home.

just now went to meet the Alif gang for some Alif!
had really random chats about ridiculous things they saw in life HAHA!!
seriously why they meet so funny people one.
then had alot of awkward moments LOL!! im still smiling to myself thinking about those moments :p

*****************

i think its my fault.
i only spend time with people i feel comfortable with.
always complain say " i also not close with him/her...."
but end up is i really didnt spend time to get to know him/her more.
bcos i really like the comfort zone i am in now,i dont want to step out and expose myself to danger.
its a scary world out there lor.
later people stab me how.
now my comfort zone is people i've know more than 3 years i trust that they won't kill me LOL

then the group at Alif tonight is like.....nolstalgic.
4 of us...
bcos i think one of my happiest memories is with you, and our two " dinosaurs " then right?

i believe we have to just admit it, some people are just meant to be passerbys in your life :)
its normal to miss them once in a while. i think.

SG 10k, its your city, run it!

Sodagreen

2011-10-08T14:45:00.000+08:00

这首歌背后的意义好深..
厌倦了生活听一听这首歌!
口中吃了一片柠檬，还是能笑出来的
说不定还有另一番风味哈哈哈哈哈哈
:)

幾點鐘
結束夢
他按下鬧鐘如往常開始了一天生活
忙工作忙收穫
早餐吃什麼
他和他維持齒輪的脈搏
汗水在他的身上化成了彩虹
步伐的節奏延續生命的河流
默默在崗位戰鬥的每個小小英雄
富有和貧窮、卑微和偉大相同
他從不害怕自己被人群淹沒

中午吃便當是他最大享受
幾點鐘
也許是月出的時候
如往常
結束了一天工作
他心中幻想著
晚餐吃什麼

家裡的
讓他不怕往前衝
疲累在他的身上化成了笑容
步伐的節奏開始不那麼沈重
輕輕旋轉著夏天地面悶熱的晚風

平凡或特別、笨拙或聰明相同
他從不擔心自己被世界折磨
甜蜜的負荷是他最大依託
帶著笑容的睡意化成了彩虹
在他夢中一口氣走上了星空
喧囂地亮起整個夏天渴望的揮霍
清淡與濃烈、
好與壞他都嚐過
他從不介意自己被命運作弄
按下了鬧鐘開啟另一個夢

Some factors in us.

2011-10-07T23:06:00.001+08:00

so it was a rainy evening yesterday!
its been like that these few days ah~
but still, the POP went on.
they marched in the rain and it was like wooooooo so damn cool.
they sung and did some....er idk how to explain.
hahahahaha just see the pics lah!

our whole family :)

with one of his handsome sir. he looks damn strict man

after allowing families to the ex-recruits for awhile they had to fall in again~
and then after that they went back to get bags and THROW HATS!!!!!
hahahahahaha that was the most epic moment
some threw so far ( almost reaching the parents' seating area ) they pick back that time was sucha #awkwardmoment LOL!!!!
i laughed quite loud....

k gdnaix

41 SAR, Glory : Ex-recruit C.wj!

2011-10-06T23:05:00.000+08:00

just came back from my fatty bro's POP parade :)
so touched he managed to survive hahaha
he's a weakling compared to me MUAHAHAHA
but still he survived this 3 months and he isn't a recruit anymore!!
hehe.
almost cried just now when they were marching in and everything...
my bro leh!! love him so much
couldnt get a nice pic of the whole parade cos my cam really cant take far pics ~.~
totally suck like shit.
only close up pics look nice, took quite a few pics i shall upload tmr!
its late and im on morning duty tmr, last day!!
:)
IM A FREE BIRD yay
ok gdnights i love my dearies.
i miss them so much :(
wish i could Alif with them soon but their Os are so fucking near its scary.

" Even the wildest rainstorms deserve a chance "

2011-10-05T12:27:00.002+08:00

run my fingers across your lips..
captivated by you baby,

ah left with 3 days of work.
imma update more when i come back from my bro's POP tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!
so long never see that asshole already.
:D

why does listening to Gabe Bondoc make me feel so relax and happy?
he's awesome.

Free fallin'

2011-10-03T00:49:00.003+08:00

listening to good music........
ended my phone call with babe fei as she complained and we raved over JC Litas.
hahahaha so girls.
reading some blogs...touched.
why dont i have someone to do something special for me too?
haha just saying.
gdnights.

cause' i see sparks fly whenever you smile :)

We shimmer.

2011-10-01T23:53:00.001+08:00

it's saturday!
spent my weekends wisely,with my babes!!!!!!!!!!!!
today brought them out on a special date keke.
knew alot more people and had new experiences :p
cant elaborate much,that's all!
went to flea after that but didnt get myself anything,
cos the clutch that i wanted to get was the last piece and it was dirty :(
so saddddddddd
oh well save money then.
time for pics............

thanks Jane and jeantte for this look!

sorry for the bad quality but did you see the diff??? hahahah i removed something off my face ............

went out with em' !

had fish&chips @BMC , its pretty okay considering the price?
the fish is really sweet and fresh.

hahahaha did this pic make you drool? i did. she's so muthafucking hot. i swear.

Devil.

2011-09-27T22:48:00.000+08:00

how is everybody~~
another week is soon gonna pass again.
im looking forward to my holiday! yes,im having hols in 2 weeks time again.
just one week :(

& our Genting tickets have been booked!!
weeee so excited.
boarding bus at the same place again but we havent decide what to do on that day~
its Xmas! our favourite time of the year!!!!!!!!!!!
thinking of potluck or steamboat?
hahahaha
actually counting the amount of money we spend for each potluck/steamboat,
it can actually buy us a few pizzas and eat until we die lor.
but.....we just love meat too much! LOL

so last saturday we went to eat Hotplate Buffet @ Little Cherry Restaurant!
opposite Bugis Junction ( the place we love to go for steamboat )

was unsure of the place and was in cab scouting...then when we saw the place we were like,
EHHHH!!!! LITTLE CHERRY!!!!!!!
HAHAHA

then quickly alighted and fly inside.

want to know how much we ordered?
in plates...
9x shabu shabu
4x vegetables
1x mutton
1x beef
2x prawns
4x dory fish
2x chicken
1x chicken wings
3x mushroom
1x crab
1x kimchi
2x meatballs

there was more that we ordered but they never came...LOL
the people there i suppose were totally amazed by how much we ate.
srsly!
customers that came in later than us we already long gone ~.~
we kept complaining say what " eh full already lah wtf i am so fat "
but the moment the shabu reached our mouth and melts inside......
we went " DAMN NICE LEH ORDER SOMEMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
but we order so much we were so paiseh in the end, dont dare to call them already :/
but 9plates of shabu.....woooop!!!
guess the people really got irritated by us, initially the shabu one plate only got 8 pieces,
then they kept increasing the amount and every other plate we ordered it got more and more pieces
HAHAHAHA so babarian la!
think we complained about the quantity a lil too loud :p

we reluctantly moved our asses ( which was harder to move as compared to us being hungry and strength-less ) to Haji lane cos fei was raving about one shop there!
end up she didnt buy anything~~~ and we went to eat Pluck's ice cream instead!
kekeke
it was practically an EATING OUTING
eat eat eat. fat fat fat.
Pluck's pretty famous and i've been talking about it for quite long heh.
its nice lor and hard to catch their opening hours too! must be real lucky one.

after that we bused to town to check out H&M.
hmm what to say?
not really our style.
so we got pretty bored~
but yeh of cos it was an eye opener, being there already so we're not THAT SUAKU now.
am in love with one of their hoodie, considering if i should buy for Genting trip!!!!
hot pink yo?!
after that we went to scape's weekend flea!!!!!!!!!
THATS WHEN THE SHOPPING BEGIN
hahaha totally stealsssssssssssssss.
i got 2 pieces for 8$.
i cant believe it yet.
everytime i go there i get something one hehe.
so prob going back there soon!!
but its really really hot and stuffy there.
burned off 1/8 of the consumed fats at hotpot earlier.

i already have in mind what to buy the next time i get to the scape flea!!!!!!!! wee u weet.
ok bye peeps
im so eggcited for saturday's even!!!!
SWAGGGGG!!!

cool shit or what?!
they use marble slab to cook one lor!!!!!!!!!!!!
but we burnt their mable slab one....the whole aircon room was like smoke filled just bcos of us.
hahahahahah
so sorry they had to clean it for us when it was like 600w powered.....IMAGINE HOW HOT!! :(

xz and ky totally 有一腿 can!
they were touching each others' legs under the table!!!!!!!!!!!!

sorry the shabu pics were the only i kept taking ahahahahaha

forgot to mention how much we spent for so much food.
hold your jaws.
its just 10.90$.
yes. no doubt! no GST added even.
thats how awesome Groupon is.

bought new stuff! keke.
anw bodyshop staffs @ JP are so rudeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. -.-

we were damn blue that day! not mood, but dressing. hahaha

tried Ding Tea as recommended by blogger Kaykay!
at blk 492, Jurong West!!!! very convenient for Jurong people!!! keke.
it was pretty unique, i got the Hokkaido Milktea.
but i didnt try out the pearl cos YY didnt order~.~
haha nvm i'll be back to try it again soon.

ok i needa sleep~~ gdnaix sweetdream~

Unable to move on...

2011-09-25T21:19:00.002+08:00

after one whole semester...
im still not able to make up my mind.
what can i do?

did i go any lower than this..

Its not easy to be me.

2011-09-24T02:20:00.001+08:00

hi did you miss me?

you could be the one i always loved,

i just love bossa nova...

我们改变了许多

2011-09-18T19:59:00.001+08:00

One of our spastic moments hahaha

Q was still skinny here! Lol.

3weeks of mundane work....
Let's just hope I survive.
Attachment here I come -.-

- Posted on the bed using blogpress!

I need.

2011-09-17T19:54:00.000+08:00

attachment starting on monday!!
so sian so sian.
plus new timetable sucks :(
aishhhhh there goes my 3 weeks!
hope i survive.
prolly would be too busy in the hospital to even tweet.
pehhhhhhh :(
ytd went to sing k with YY and KY
crazeh dudes! my throat hurt so much after that, we practically shouted to hit the notes for the last few songs!
feel so relaxed with them~ enjoyed my friday night!
didnt take any pics cos i pratically was MAD TIRED!
got woken up damn early in the morn to go hospital and visit my bro.
then after that rushed to meet the girls at Frolick and then homed,
off to hospital again.
im sick of answering qns to what happened to my bro.
lol. so just dont ask k. he's fine anyway.
after visiting him again straight went to K!
homed at 11plus, yawns.
KO at 2plus or 3 i think.

bye. gonna head out soon after i bathe!

#awkward position

i wished i was part of your world.

2011-09-14T23:45:00.001+08:00

it doesn't get to me why sometimes you say things you feel. (i'd not use the word complain)
i don't feel you.
i think you're a person living a life better than me.
maybe at some point im having it better than you....but...you have all the things i want for myself.
:(
come to think of it...maybe i want to just switch lives with you...
just for a day.
but with my own face of cos. :/

you have your dreams,
family income is above average.
you get what you want.

what do i have that anyone's jealous of?
i wished i knew.

中秋节快乐!

2011-09-12T23:34:00.001+08:00

提了灯笼了吗?
吃月饼了吗?
想起童年了吗?
长大了今年的今天,似乎意义变浅了许多.
太忙吧.......
when i was young i'd carry lanterns along the corridoor with my bro,
light some candles and play sparklers.
but he just booked in again at ard 8pm. :( confined for 3 weeks fucksssssss
just cos he was too kind ( HE ALWAYS LIKE THAT ONE. HELP PPL THEN OWNSELF EAT SHIT )
sian before he left he was like " see you in a month's time "
:( bonggggggggg.
still rmb 2 years ago!!!!!!
i was with these group of people for mid autumn festival...........

hahahahahah FTL max siol every year imma take this pic to scare them.....look how much they changed LOL
my 10brothers!

had an early celebration that day like i blogged about then,
windy until unbelievable.
hahahaha the wind cos us a few lanterns :(
plus!!!!!!
we bought so much mooncakes we couldnt even finish them.
WE SPENT LIKE 71.50$ in total.
wtffff???? hahahahah most expensive mid autumn festival evaaaaaaaa.
but it was the first one i had with the Sens!
:)
so nice to joke around with them, shouting and screaming away,
laugh so loud and curse so loud~~~~~
i miss them already.. haha. its only been, 3days?
puiiiiiiiii. :(
this year is still the same,
i spend my mid autumn festival rotting away.
went to training and rot for a change instead!
but at least had some funny chats with the 2 As.
Andy and Aarron.
they rlly damn irritating!
and got to see some rlly cute kids!!!!! keke.

our sparkles, in chinese we call it 仙女棒!

a few out of our 1000000000 lanterns. chio sibo?

his fail shots of trying to draw something ahhahahahaha

our first attempt of group shot -.-
DAMN FAIL SIA. mf only set 2sec timer wtf. by the time she run back to us already snap photo alr.
pianggggggggggz she major fail only.
then after 2 attempts the sparkles went out -.-!!!!!
bong...........

can see????? the word 千 :) SENS!

we tried to keep one last flame alive.

first lantern lit up on that day!!!! MINE!!!!!! in pink muahahahahah

our successful grp shot! without haikal though :'( he left early.

blurry cos its a snapshot of Q's cam.

wait until she finishes her prelimssssssssss.

NEW FOUND CLAYPOT RICE HIAK HIAK HIAK
new food place!!!!!! yay

在我脑海里徘徊很久

2011-09-12T02:07:00.001+08:00

就让我倒入你的怀...

I actually forgot I used to want to read people's mind so much.
I guess it's age...
Making us change,forcing us step by step into reality.

Now I don't.
I turned into sucha lazy ass...
Lazy to even explain myself.
Fend for myself.

Time to sleep. Naix.
Don't forget to tell someone you love them. :)
You never know how much it meant to them.

Miss my babes..........
Damn I am so fat compared to last time :(:(:(

- Posted on the bed using blogpress!

Day #17 a drunk photo of me and who would i wanna switch lives with for a day

2011-09-11T23:37:00.004+08:00

还没喝得七把烂醉
所以没照片

不知道想跟谁交换一天的生活
就是不想当自己就对了
做我很辛苦
一点都不好玩
平常都还蛮寂寞的 :(

Beauty sleep?

2011-09-11T23:18:00.002+08:00

promised to show you what's the diff between enough sleep and not enough!there....

when i have enough sleep!

when i dont have enough sleep....like sleeping at 4/5am and waking up at 8am?

can see the diff anot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2nd pic my face bloated daooooooooooo. even with my hair down my face still damn fat.
ewwwwww girls need more sleep. :(
i almost cant even see my chin in the 2nd pic liao wtf.

You,have knocked me off my feet again.

2011-09-11T02:16:00.001+08:00

sitting on a chair my bro spends time with whenever he is home.
why does it feel so weird he isn't here on a saturday night?
he's somewhere digging some hole...
maybe listening to some botak indian sir say " do you know why you cant cook in the forest???"
hahahahaha

ranting about the same old little things...........
i really wonder why do i sound so different when im reading something aloud.
when im not so lazy i can record and show you.

damn....

i see your name.................

and i hate you...............

why are you doing this to me............

disappearing out of my life...............not even a word of bye.

hate you...........

but i hate myself more....cos i keep thinking about you.

don't i even cross your mind at all?

Hi,my name is Candle.

2011-09-10T02:40:00.001+08:00

just got home from the pre-mid autumn festival celebration!
crazyyyyyy i just broke another record for my vulgar count today.
hahahaha i srsly keep on at there 'fuck ni fuck ni fuck ni '
srsly damn funny lah.
wind was on our side today, YES I MEAN IT KEPT BLOWING AT OUR SIDE.
so strong it was hard to light up anything!
we burned up at least 3 lanterns. :(
TOLD KY TO BRING HIS ELECTRIC ONE ALR!
he scared paiseh dont want bring!!!!!!

chut alot of stunts hahaha shall update more tmr..
im too lazy to update pics now.

our last gathering,ended on a night like this!

&spent some time with the Old Ones,
the 4 of us like fucking long never come tgt already?!
standard we gossiped abit....hahahahaha
ok naix.
and im serious,sleeping late will cause a bloated face.
i will show you evidence tmr!!

AND ON A SIDE NOTE, IT IS THE MOST EXPENSIVE LANTERN FESTIVAL I'VE EVER HAD

其实我们像被点着的,蜡烛,仙女棒还有灯笼..
看似美丽;
但是一靠近会被烧伤---会痛.
我们也并不是每个人想象中的漂亮..
只能愿我们唯一不同的是 : 我们不会是短斩的.

deep inside i hope you feel it too,or maybe not.

2011-09-09T17:35:00.000+08:00

" as you grow older, your life gets more and more and even more fucked up. Sometimes I wonder what if I happen to die tomorrow. I have been spending my life studying away for a future that no one even knows how it's going to turn out to be. We live in such a world. it's sad. it's tragedy. We should live for today, not tomorrow, not 10 years down the road. We should be happy but now we're ugly. " -quoted from a blog that i like alot, Heartandlungs.bs ah, my hair stopped dripping water. time to head outtttttttttttt.last night out with them. and we will get together 2 months later.

好想对你说

2011-09-09T02:06:00.000+08:00

swam 30laps today!
super exhausted.
happy girl today,gonna sleep cos i watched the newest ep of KangXi.

hahahaha ok naixxx

My 8th June post.

2011-09-08T02:39:00.000+08:00

"以为,将来还会有机会一起读一样的学校,
至少能把见面的时间拉长一些.."
........
"毕竟我真的跟他们的世界差太远了.
两岁的年龄渐渐地显出我们的距离...
以前不成问题的问题,终于变成了我的败笔."
.......
"讨厌自己对他们的依赖-
事实上除了他们,
我什么都没有."
.....
......
......
"我都在质疑..
是真的吗?
我真的如此重要?
怎么只能在那一瞬间感觉到?? "

why is this happening exactly 3months later again?

Day #16 pic of a party i last went to/ interesting pic of myself

2011-09-08T00:04:00.000+08:00

im being a total mental bitch right now
not happyyyyyyyyyyyyy 不爽ok?!

going to swim tmr and vent all my anger........pffft.
am gonna sleep early and try to meet my dearies for breakfast.
they nan de can have hols?! that is with mine lah..
and i've been like sleeping to 1pm everyday.

草莓族 is totally what you can group me into.
its like i look strong... like a strawberry that looks nice and sweet. ( which usually turns out sour )
but i am those kind of people who totally cant take stress and i will cry and i will give up and feel like dying.
SO YOU BETTER HANDLE ME WITH CARE.
cos you put pressure on me, i'll become a pile of shit-like substance.
then you'll eat shit already i tell you.

today met up with k!
its a short getaway cos she has finally gotten done with her first half of Ns!
2nd half gonna come soon, in 4 weeks time i guess.
so it was just a short walk around, chatted a lil.
now we rarely see each other.. :(
i really miss Jurong.. after moving to BB for half a year i still dont like it.
i miss the times where her house was just a stone's throw away from mine.
then i'll stay over, till real late and we'll just watch vids and laugh tgt.

last year mid-autumn festival i at home rot like fuck so this year prob is the same.

why is this hitting me like a tsunami,
so hard i cant believe it?
i thought i was getting past this issue of all of us having such huge differences,
be it parental control, different goals, different schools, different cliques...
WHY IS IT SO HARD?!

i didnt ask for more.
i rlly didnt.
just one fucking day.
just one.

cb i srsly hate education. fuck education ok.

Day #16 pic of a party i last went to:
no alcoholic party/gathering means its NOT A PARTY.
so i havent been to one.
yesssssssssssss im attitude-ing cos i didnt went to one SO WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!
told you im pissed.

interesting pics of myself

interesting anot? 4 or 5 years ago i look like this.
the teeth like :B
............ buay tahan!!!!!

now i freaking look like this.

ytd i had 66 views? wow thx. guess like...1 person at least came here 5 times right.

& got realize anot! i cut my fringe. yay my mom cut for me one.
i nagged at her for like the whole procedure cos the last time she cut i almost cried -.-
so she dont dare cut too short alr.

Day #15 Put my iPod on shuffle, pic of someone i love

2011-09-05T23:21:00.000+08:00

hey thereeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
today's been a tiring day, played a lil while ball and im like...dying.
so tired?!
:(
im going to rot......
at home everyday...
they say they're not gonna go out anymore..
there goes my 3 weeks of hols.
:(
hate my life.
why dont someone tell me what the fuck we are trying hard for?
for some future that no one fucking sees?
who said that if you work hard then you'll get the life you want in future.

Day #15
Putting my iPod on shuffle and the 1st 10 songs on play :

侧田-无言无语
Justin Bieber - I'll never let you go
FT Island - Love Love Love
梁静茹 - 可惜不是你
动力火车 - 那就这样吧
FT Island - 偶然
Clay Aiken - Invisible
2ne1 - Follow Me
Westlife - My Love
罗志祥 - 口头缠

very awesome songs!!!!
suddenly realized i havent been listen to my iPod's music le. been downloading into another app..

Love is a heavy word.
i think i dont have anyone i LOVE just yet.
but there's just someone on my mind.

是我太懦弱吧..
怎么一个年龄比我小的人想得比我还成熟?

想真的留在身边一辈子的人,
不能当情人吧.
做一辈子的朋友可以吗?
但谁又能够保证朋友不会离开?

痛过两次,
很怕..
那种痛真的好难受.
怎么也形容不来.
像是心痛到要炸开,
眼泪好多好多在心里--流不出来..

千家当中最幼稚的是我...

"你們就是我，
生命的意義。" -txz

If it feels right,then aim for my heart.

2011-09-04T12:46:00.000+08:00

i still miss my cap :(

look so diff when i was with shorter hair lol

Day #14 pic of my favourite family member

2011-09-03T23:04:00.000+08:00

pic of my favourite family member!!

she is forever my favourite niece!!!!! love her so much i watched her grow up one haha

today went to watch movie, 1030 am show siolllllllllll
Crazy Stupid Love :D
so damn early!almost couldnt drag myself out of bed.
gave everyone a morning msg and went out :)
so loved right so loved!! hahahaha

then reached just right on the dot to watch the movie its pretty nice,
i like! got hot guy inside i forgot his name..
but its a sweet movie with a few twist and humour here and there! i like!
touching and i cried on a few occasions.
" You will fight for your soulmate "
damn sweet yo!!

i'd recommend couples to go watch

then the mafan bitch forget to bring her ezlink out!! tsk~
headed back to jurong and get her card then off to bugis
ended up i was the one who bought something :x
kinda catch up alot today too~~ keke
that's all gdnaix all, ♥.

bought some bracelets from Cotton On!! faith.

my double chin forever cannot maintain one.

today is so quiet!!
但是还好..让耳根清静清静.
hope someone diao da yu oh~ and feed some mozzies hahahahaha
in case never bring frog LOL

烂苹果

2011-09-03T01:55:00.001+08:00

睡不着..
那一字一句回荡在我耳边..
怎么又是我?
我到底又怎么了?
我打人了吗?
我伤人了吗?
我酗酒了吗?
我抽烟了吗?
我也只不过是想有人陪..
我做错了吗?

我真的有那么坏吗?
说话的音量大,表达方式粗俗,脾气不好--是你们眼中的坏小孩?

是不是要我真的变坏你们才看的到现在的我?

怎么我被一个不认识的人弄哭了?

算了.其实我也不懂我有什么好的.
反正也不是第一次.

- Posted on the bed using blogpress!

我们说好了不回头

2011-09-03T00:41:00.001+08:00

just now went to have dins with them~ we talked so much i think the whole coffeeshop aunties and uncles know about our cui stuff..
we were talking about HUMAN STINK BOMBS hahahahaha i was laughing so fucking loud
and i dont believe it, they got shorter memory than me?!
they forgot we went to hiao at ikea ytd LOL
ok i need to sleep.
sleeping late = a bloated face :(

我们说过不能回头
我真的也没那么窝囊,
但是放手没那么容易吧.
像是还没完全熄灭的火把,风吹又燃起了..

You are the only one.

2011-09-02T18:57:00.001+08:00

evening my darlings!!!!!!
its a crazy mental day!! HAHAH
guess where i went today?
i went Expo!
ALL ALONE YO.
mental enough anot LOL
cos i wanted to check out the Borders book fair which is on 50% off today!!! MADNESS IKR
but it was disappointing for me lah didnt have the author i love most so its like.. i go there sian lor.
nevermind that i think today's a good day
i met like this lady while i was queuing at Burger King for my Taro Turnover ( its supa delicious lor the only thing i ate up till now since i woke up )
she bought her stuff and then she about to walk out of the place then she spoke to me
" i think you might want to change queue cos this queue takes super long, REALLYYYY long. you should join the middle queue :) "
idk why i feel good about her words lor,its like how many of your will tell strangers that?
to benefit the others?
end up middle queue got faster abit lah, but still take quite long~~~ BK abit slow srsly.

the crowd at Borders Book Fair was just crazy ok srsly crazy
the queue was like freaking long which i estimated to be like, 2hours wait?!
fuck sia if i want to buy only 3 books then need queue 2hours or more i not THAT mental yet.
so just depressingly placed down the 3 books that i chose and went to JohnLittle Mega sale at the other hall.
WA SHIOOKKKKKK i at there walk until shuang
bought a few stuffs and it actually added up to 50$ omg heartpain
later i confirm claim from my parents one hahahahaha!

ended up i thought someone will be at home lor :(
then no one at home.. hais empty house again!
nvm im heading out in awhile go collect my Kawa ( BBT ) from Y!

ytd our crazy expedition of Ikea hahaha

never buy alot right?

NEW BATH TOWEL KEKE
for me and K

aiya sometimes i wish i wasnt this messy -.- look at what happen to my mom's bed
i like throw all my clothes on her bed
cos i got this habit of changing alot of clothes before i get the right one when im going out hahahahaha

ON A SIDE NOTE I LOVE THE NEW BLOGGING TEMPLATE?!
cb fucking chio

Day #13 plans,goals or dreams i have/pic of my best friends

2011-08-31T23:15:00.004+08:00

i got no goals~no plans~
im a person who lives everyday, waiting for something to happen.
pathetic anot?
haha. but i've dreams. i used to want to be a lawyer, police,actress,singer,dancer!!!
its still the same now just that those are more feasible thoughts when im dreaming.

but at least in my mind i know at least once,
once in my life, i want to go overseas and help those poor kids.
i want to go be a volunteer. not elaborating~
guess this is a part of me others shouldnt know. hahaha.

today i went to meet K! :)
finally!
haha we spent a few good hours together watching videos and laughing!!
all the best for exams next week :)
i promise we'll hunt down those 24/7 brunch shops!!!!
:D

pics of my bestfriends hahaha
actually bestfriends dont exist for me now leh.
i mean what, bestfriends is such an old school term.
i call them in a way im comfortable :)
i'll just show you who are the ones who are really with me during my hard times these few months..

hahahahahah this fella.. growing sideways already...
alot alot alot to thank him for.
he is my exploding point for vulgar. rlly. ( obviously im not grateful for this )
but what im grateful about him...cannot say here.
our secret :) HOR BRUDDER?!
actually that yxk also wont come here one...like cb only. hahahhahaha

this is my no.1 silly girl.
forever flaring up more than i do over some matters.
no one ever understands what she's trying to say...
another one that makes my blood boil.
but i still love her cos she's a total babygirl to me.
really she is soooooo cute. i rlly cannot stand her sometimes haha SHE MASSIVE CUTE
now im smiling in front of the lappy thinking she how cute
i want to thank her also bcos she forever telling me to rely on her,
tell me that she will takecare of me. and rlly,she lives up to her words :)
she does alot of things for me, i know i rlly know.
xiexieni. you have to let me grow up also ok? haha dont let me rely on you too much.

my dearest darling behbi fei!!!
she grew up alot from the time i know her.
in fact she's the one thats more calm and doesnt flare up as often among us already.
hahaha now left me and y the childish ones.
she's more sensitive to the surroundings and she take cares of me sometimes when we're out.
we are those 2 who are forever best eating partners AND WE ARE SO SIMILAR
rlly. loudness..taste.. hahaha i love this behbi fei la i love to hug her she supa comfy
and i can keep crying with her ard LOL she's another crybaby also keke

another one is my lovely YODONGSENG!!!!!!
i cant find out recent pic COS I HAVENT GONE OUT WITH HER FOR A LONG TIME :(
of cos i wont forget her. she is forever the listening to all my rants, never judge me,forever encouraging me.
slept with her so many time somemore HAHAHAH!!
close until cannot close already she's rlly my sis~~~~

ok gtg, i need to wake up at freaking 8am tmr. zzzz
anw....
i love CNU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ♥ ☺
post his pics tmr ok?
i wanna let Fei see this post so she can go sleep ~.~
wan an baobeissssssssssss kooonz~~

你看不到的天空.

2011-08-31T13:29:00.001+08:00

好像飘浮了很久  自从那天你放开了手  应该是两个人来的港口  我一个人在虚拟温柔

对你还能怎麼说能怎麼做
做什麼也都不够
插在口袋中
是没有人来握住的手

zhi shi xin hen tong. :(

Day #12 10Things i may state about my boyfriends/a pic of me

2011-08-31T02:00:00.000+08:00

today's challenge is a bit hard for me to comprehend so i'll just put it the way like,
the 10 things about my boy-friends?

1. they are sports players ( all of them )
2. they are good looking people

3. they are bored easily

4. they like to irritate me alot

5. they eat ALOT

6. they are....all single and available ( self-proclaim one haha )

7. they pua alot of stunts and go out with is like going out with monkeys hahahahaha

8. they prolly dont know how to cook anything else other than maggi mee...i think? maybe fry an xtra egg to put on top :) LOL

9. they are all very sweet guysssssssssssssss

10. they love their family

so mind stuckedddddddddddd not feeling well today pffffft.

Webify Me

2011-08-31T00:22:00.002+08:00

Was bored and wanted to do this Webify Me on mozilla firefox browser.
its like a quiz of 20qns, you answer them and then they give you icons that describe you.
so on the top left hand corner, you see the thing with the Geek Specs and mustache,
and i find it surprising and not surprising....irony much. expected such explaination but still find it weird how come its so true.
every icon stands for something diff.
so here's what that special icon stands for.

Disguise:
Who are you? A mystery, an enigma, a chameleon that no one really knows. You know what you need to keep private, and what to show the outside world. Your identity is yours alone — wear them proudly, anonymous.

now,who am i?

我们没有一辈子的时间去耗

2011-08-30T23:38:00.006+08:00

pissed offffffffffffffffffffff.

shall post my challenge tmr cos i can't think of anything now!!
finally Y has the photos up.
when i was trying to recall the best night out.....
i couldn't remember..
i really don't. how?
the happiest time i've had i actually dont remember?
:(
i must refresh my mind again!!!!!!
is it at vivo rooftop? or IMM rooftop? or one of our night outs?
not clarke quay.
not sentosa. i dont like getting that dirty lol. and sunburned and tired and hungry. everytime go there i dont play much.
not genting. i still rmb the viking ewwwww
not BBQs. everytime from BBQ go home sure gastric and smelly one.....
is it at Y's chalet? that one i had much fun!
or is there some night out i had more fun?
PLZ HELP ME RECALL???
when i see your on thurs tell me ok or text me haha

hais i feel like singing my heart out again.
everytime in the KTV room i can turn off my phone think about nothing and just sing sing sing

Day #11 another pic of my friends/favourite film

2011-08-29T23:38:00.005+08:00

so tired!!!!!!! yawning like a million times in front of the com now.
don't even have the feel to sing cos im really that exhausted,plus today KTV session was fun.
got disturbed more than sing! haha,3hours isnt enough for us too..
but we got like 6 people this time so yeah,3hours really not enough.
we just like sit in the room and like dee siao until the person came to chase us away!!!
LOL kiasu ttm lah didnt want to leave.
:( next time we'll try Cdans and sing supa longgggggggg and cheap.
hahahahaha
but dunno when lah. education.....major fuck our lifes ok. just fuck it hard.

then dins at Wan Chai and after that shopped around after the 2guys left.
darling bought the Paul Smith perfume!! she really liked it.
but i personally preferred the Burberry one.
and alottttttttttttt of bags caught my eyes,my favourite cost 578$. lol fml.
got another Kate Spade one also chiooooooooooooo
ok ok ok enough im a super super poor kid. break broke broken!
but it was like ON SALE!!!!!!! fuck imagine the real retail price.
sale only last till tmr, 30th august. at IMM level 1.

OMG ITS LIKE FUCKING SEPTEMBER SOON!!!!!!!
so soon............i know im going to tahan this shit.
this shit is soon gonna be over.
ikr.
AND IDKW I AM SO SAD I JUST DONT SUIT BLACK HAIR LA?!
nabeh so expensive to dye hair. hahahahahah
ok nvm you know what?
i sumpa already the moment i graduate im going dye my hair red.
REALLY.
for this coming another 2 and half years im just going keep this boring black hair... just digusted only.
really wanna go 算命and find out what is in store for me..
i really think its better for me? its like im so aimless right now..........
dont know wtf to do with my life.

*deleted a whole chunk of complains about my Nursing course.
i cant do this forever. :( accept....
*spam another whole chunk of vulgar in my mind *

am i wrong to think that i want to go out in the working field now and earn myself a living?

Day #11
another pic of my friends!

the group of people i spend 1/2 of my happiest time in life with.
with them, i forget everything except fun. best people i've met in the world. :)

favourite films :
going on about these 2 films forever, but these are the 2 i wont forget,ever.

if you're looking for films to cry, these 2 fit just right! touching enough.
esp A Moment To Remember.
cry until your mother also dont recognise ok.
Sound of Music has a lil humour in front, and like the title of the film suggest, it has pretty good music too.
not much introduction will be told for these 2 films though :P
should just trust my taste, WATCH IT :)
but these 2 are pretty old already. just that Sound Of Music might be easier to find cos its rlly famous.

A Moment To Remember's lead actor and actress is mega handsome+chio.
( another point why you should watch it )
hahahahahah ok wah ai koon liao!